Is that what you really want? Is that what you want to do this most?
Well, that’s the dream, isn’t it?
Or is it?
Just because “everyone” wants to be a movie star or win the lottery doesn’t mean you have to. So many time we use the dream as an excuse to reason why we’re doing what we’re doing. More often than my dream.
Why? Because of pressure? Expectation? I’ve been guilty of this and even recently I feel like I’ve fooled myself into thinking that something grand was a dream of mine, when really it’s just something that may be credible or impressive. Because it’s not something people might not understand. And when people don’t understand, we begin to second guess and so on.
And what’s worse than someone making your dream seem silly.
Yeah, I know, I talk about dreams a lot. Honestly, it’s because I feel like so many people have wild passions that are suppressed by practicality. Sure there’s risk taking, but when you’re driving with full momentum towards something exciting, other things you’ve been worrying about stop mattering. Like how am I going to afford my daily latte? Trust me, if it’s important, you’ll find a way.
My point is, it’s easy to fool yourself into thinking you’re chasing your dreams when you’re really chasing someone else’s. There’s a difference between hard, dirty work turning into your dream job and doing something that others think will be cool. Get me?
I’ve thought about this on so many different occasions and could never get myself to commit to something because I’m too worried about what everyone else is thinking. So many of my friends and relatives know I go to drama school and constantly say next Hollywood star or on the big screen (I’m actually on the other side of the camera). They might love that for me, but do I love it for myself? They’re not doing the acting. But what’s really landed for me is that my biggest passions come without approval. Or better yet, egged on when I receive disapproval.
So what do you want? If you want to be an actor, your dream must be to be a massive star on billboards and drinking it up in Hollywood. That’s what a majority of the population But there are so many paths to take. Theatre? Film? Television? What kind of theatre? Especially if you’re a creative, there are no rules to success. And some people want to settle down in a home on the countryside and have a family.
Fame does not equal success.
I have to remind myself that sometimes. It’s easy to get caught up in the idea of notoriety.
But I’ll tell you, the one thing I am absolutely certain of is writing stories. There are ideas and characters and worlds in my head that I feel the need to get onto the page. My fingers are constantly itching to get them out of my head. I’ll spend hours on end scribbling or pounding at my keyboard, and honestly, not many people end up reading it. But I find it so satisfying and get obsessed with creating these imaginary lives that I’m confident it’s what I want.
I mean, I’m hoping one day my NYT bestseller will make me rich and famous but that’s second. I think.
But no, really, it has to be second. Or else the gruelling pain of pursuing a fake passion is never going to end.
POINT is, if you can’t stop doing it, keep doing it (and I don’t mean drugs).
My favorite question is: if money had nothing to do with it, if it didn’t matter what your family thought, what would you want to do? Then why aren’t you doing it?
Wouldn’t it be so cool to travel the world? Be a fashion designer? Go into space? Stop making excuses. Yes, not many people do it.
But people do it.